Changing Your Reality in Minutes.

I drove down to NC in Oct 2008 to become medicine woman/spiritual leader and I did it by myself. This was a big step for me.

I was talking on the phone with my husband. I was asking how far will I get on a tank of gas. I had 1/4 tank left and I really didn't want to get gas. He told me that you will be fine. I said well at the next town I will get gas.

Bad news. It was after 10pm and places close and the only things coming up were small towns. I was on E. I had to make a decision. On a scale of 0-10 my fear was up to a 3. I wasn't sure what was going to happen. My ego was making me feel that I was going to run out of gas and no options and all the bad things that might happen to me.

So I asked God to give me a sign. I passed a town called Waldo. I laughed and said I found waldo. (clue-I am finding myself) I saw a sign for a hotel. So I turn off and saw it and said hell no. Did you ever see the movie Psycho, with the Bates motel scene. Well my fear went up to 6 and I could not get back onto the road that I just got off of. My GPS was down. My phone was down and I couldn't think.

I said show me a sign. I choose to let go of fear. I saw two gas stations that were closed. I pulled into one and sat under the light. My fear and anxiety that I would have to stay there all night was an 8 I was crying. I played with my phone and got my husband. He was in bed and didn't answer so I said I am okay but I have to spend the night in a gas station parking lot. I hung up and called 911 and then they gave me a number to the sheriffs department. I was so upset because they didn't connect me and I didn't think I to ask. I prayed the phone would work one more time.

At this time, I started tapping (EFT). I then brought the fear down to a 4 and then I got through to the Sheriffs department. He said that he couldn't do anything for me but would send a policeman to drive through every hour.

I did another technique (EHT) and this time the feeling went to zero and color white and the thoughts stopped and the feelings of fear were gone. I felt okay. I thought okay I am sleeping here. I opened the trunk to see what I had to use to sleep all night in the back seat of my car. The policeman pulled up and said are you the woman in distress. I said yep that's me. He said I got to thinking. I only live about 2 miles from my house and I have gas in a gas can. I will come back and we will see what we can do. He left and I thought cool. He came back and said okay, we decided that we will put the gas in and drive you as far as your car will go and then if we have to we will fill the gas can up and pour it in again and get you safely to the gas station.

They drove me across the state border and to a gas station. I was so elated. I filled my car up and drove to the next town for a hotel and the town was called Ripley's. Like in Ripley's believe it or not. I was so happy I used the tools to stop the insanity. I was able to find myself (waldo) and go through an experience and not let it control me. (Ripley's believe it or not the experience happened.) I am finally in charge of that experience. I stopped the ego insanity. I remembered to use the tools.

For every thought you think a chemical peptide is created and you feel those thoughts, once you feel you think and what you think you feel and so on. Continuously creating a chemical peptide that becomes so overwhelmed that it can't play itself out it just hooks you deeper.

Insanity is doing the same thing expecting differnet results by using the same mind that created it in the first place.

problem and solution 1-13-09

Problem:

What clue did I see today? This is what stuck out like a sore thumb. I noticed a show called “what I like about you” Val has bad luck with getting married. She can’t allow herself to be happy. Her sister Holly is always happy but represses her emotions. Val is about to get married to a man she really loves but is looking for the shoe to drop. Holly has the love of her life to move away.

As I examine this I noticed that they are attaching. Val has love with grief. Holly has happiness with no feeling. My in my daily world this girl said I am depressed and sad. I can’t understand why I feel this way. I normally feel happy. As I listened to her, she believes she doesn’t have any friends. All I heard to ask her was. Do you not have friends because you choose that or because they choose to not be friends? Her look explained that she didn’t think of it that way.

Hope therapy Reading:

We found a pattern. She took out joy out of life. There is only joy when she thinks it is fun. Everything else in her life is work with misery. There can’t be any joy in this. She has taught herself to look for the misery to make sure to see if this is fun or work. If it is work she goes into the feeling of frustrations, stubbornness, listen to the ego complaining, thinking of how can I get out of this. What happened to her physically? All those chemical peptides that her thoughts made are built up. She now has a cold, coughing, sneezing, running nose, tired, and can’t focus.

Solution:

What we did then was help her consciously notice the pattern of how she thinks. That she has taken out the joy in things. She gets to choose again. People think great now things will work out. Not really. If the pattern has built up to become chronic then when you switch thoughts and give yourself a pep talk you will back slide. Your brain has been programmed to hold that negative pattern. You need to do more then just choose again. You first have to consciously be aware of the pattern. Next is give her an essences like Tree, Bach, FES, or Australian bush. Then I give them the tool of EFT – Emotional Freedom technique. I then have them sit in front of me and would do EHT and hold the pulse points while I talk them through from detaching them from the outcome, the stronghold of that belief and limited decision.

Because her body has become sick. If the degree is a cold and can handle then nothing. If the symptoms are really bad then I make a customized homeopathic. I would check her pH Balance and if it is a little low then suggest eating more alkaline foods. If the pH Balance is really low then I suggest them on a different program. If it is chronic and the terrain has been infested with colonies of fungus, parasites, bacteria, or viruses then it is highly suggested that they use a customized homeopathic that will address those issues.

January 9th, Friday 2009

I am one step closer to healing a big issue of mine. I have been playing out this continued story. I told you yesterday that my daughter is having problems fitting in. Well since she is the first ring of illusion, she is what is in my face to heal. The question is what clues or mirrors am I getting from this.

I first tell people to list the name. In this case my Daughter. Then the negative beliefs, qualities, or limited decisions.

ie: Daughter

Dreading to go to school and be around her friends
Yearning to have friends, something better then what she has.
Physically making herself sickThinks about it to much contemplation

Well that is it. I see that dreading falls under the kidney meridian. Which means that emotions is set as a trigger point (learn more about myotherapy) Kidney represents the cleansing of the water in the body and water represents emotions. As a medicine woman I would use a healing technique that is called EHT –emotional healing technique. This is where I use the pulse points, the oh my Creator points, a scale and of number and color. I have you get into the feeling and thinking process then in a matter of minutes.

You will see the number and color change and you will feel yourself becoming less attached to that emotion or thought process. Then when it hits zero and white then it is cleared out of your emotional and mental body. Then I use hands on healing to clear it out of the physical body and aura. If it has been in there longer than seven years then it is a spiritual issue as well and probably will require a customized homeopathic as well.

Again anything that you are unsure of the meaning please visit my other blogs for definitions.

I have to go to the emotion of Yearning and contemplation. With the case that she is making a physical manifestation of her thoughts. ((Oh by the way, for every thought you think a chemical peptide is created and it acts like a key and locks itself into the cells that represent those neuronet emotions. So it can play it self out (acute) or become chronic and create the body environment to always show up as not healthy.)) I would still use the EHT method. I would use suggestive words that would help the subconscious mind to release the pattern of the body to have to go into sickness. Remember that all healing takes place at the subconscious level.

January 8th 2009 dread & yearning

Today's mirror started at 7:20am. My husband came into the room I am sleeping in and said I have to go to work and I ran out of time to get our daughter to go to school. Turned the big light on and left. She did come in the room and sat down. He was looking for me to force her to get dressed and force her to go to school. I knew that she was hoping I would pity her and let her stay home. I am for listening and having compassion but pity is what gets me in the poor house. It is pitying that lets me be the carpet people walk all over. It is pity that makes me an enabler. Sometimes when you take something to the extreme it because unhealthy for you and the other person.

I laid there listening to her. My ego is saying I just want to sleep. Oh pity me. I am sick and I have to get up in a few hours and perform intellectual work. I can't handle this. I see know way out of this hell. This is going to go on and on and on and on and on. Please let me sleep. Why can't you just go to school and do your part. My ego even goes further by saying why doesn't he give me the same respect that I gave him. My ego whined on with self talk about how I jumped out of bed as soon as i heard a cry so it wouldn't wake him up. I would keep the light off in the hallway in order not to disturb him. Sometimes I couldn't see where I was going and trip. I took care of those babies so you didn't have to. There maybe one time that you actually got up and helped but you bitched the whole time. So in order for me not to hear you bitch I would just sacrifice myself and just do it. I yearned for you help. My ego would get caught up in the stories of how the husband got up with the baby too. Or did it so the wife could sleep. My ego wanted to blame and complain. I made this projection so up over and over again so the ego can prove that I am right. talk about living in the ego mind.

My spirit on the other hand said Brenda listen to her. She is telling you valuable information about you. She told me of the same problem as before. I don't have any friends. I don't want to be at school and watch everyone play and I don't. I knew that she wasn't going to give in. She was hoping that my pitying her would give her the one thing that she wanted and that was not to go to school. I was able to see her belief system and the decision she made that is now limited. I see the amount of emotions backing up her belief and decision. I also see the mirror of me.

I realized that my projection sitting there was me at that age or younger. I did not want to participate in life. I would rather run away and start over but if the option were there. I would say no because it was scarier then were i was. I didn't have any skills to cope with it. I just wanted to fit in. I wanted to be listening to. I wanted to make people laugh. I was the too serious one. I had replaced my response of love with anger to everything.

Well she got her way after 2 hours. I had no fight in me. I didn't want to fight. I just wanted to her to go to school and me to get back to sleeping. Kids have the energy to stick it out. parents have the energy to cave and make it all stop. I know that beating her, yelling at her, bribing her, doesn't work. I know when she has her mind set on something it is like a steal trap.

Put one foot in front of the other

I was sitting in my living room with my husband watching the animation Santa clause is coming to town, which first aired on ABC December 13, 1970. I was listening to the song; “Put one foot in front of the other by Bass, Jules. I am so excited as I am listening to the words. Wow that is what I believe. It is positive and totally great words. My husband said in 1970 you would have been 3 years old. Would you say that is when you got your first training on thinking positive to become the therapist you are now. I thought that was funny and wanting to share the lyrics.

Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking cross the floor
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door

You never will get where you’re going
If you never get up on your feet
Come on, there’s a good tail wind blowing
A fast walking man is hard to beat

Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking cross the floor
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door

If you want to change your direction
If your time of life is at hand
Well don’t be the rule, be the exception
A good way to start is to stand

Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking cross the floor
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door

If I want to change the reflection
I see in the mirror each morn
You mean that it's just my election
To vote for a chance to be reborn

(repeat chorus twice)

Blown off Center!!!

I was so surprised by what I projected today. The night before I was working on loss of power. I did some muscle testing and found out it was in the womb. I got my little manual for life out and learned from my parents that it was easier to give in then take the crap that gets through at you over and over again. It never stops. So what do you do to make it stop? I didn’t heal that because I fell asleep.

The next day my son says to my daughter stop playing with that crystal that is evil. I thought who is this little boy of mine. Doesn’t he know who I am? My husband sat down and laid into him. I did my best to explain that it wasn’t evil. He started crying. He learned when he was younger that if he cried then mom would shut up but those days were so long ago. (I pigeon holed him-like that lady did)

I went to bed and got up excited that I am meeting with other people who think the way I think. I was ready to meet them. I had called ahead of time and they said I will meet you at where you are going to teach. I said all right. I thought that was nice of them. These people teach metaphysical like I do. I was guided to meet people more like me. I learned of places that I could go instead of just on the internet. As I stood their they didn’t say much except get caught up with the women that was working. They are dear old friends. The lady behind the counter said that she was sad and grieving. I said you can heal that you know. Well them must have been fighting words. I said well I can show you a little of what I do. You can help the body heal the emotional build up in a matter of minutes instead of years or never. I stopped talking when the two ladies that I was there to meet walked away in disgust. I said the one lady behind the counter. I guess this is my que to shut up. Because when I asked the lady if she wanted to heal she said that is all she is doing and the emotions are not there. I have learned from the past that we tend to deal way the pain instead of remove the toxins from the body and heal it. I had asked her questions an she answered in away that told me that she wasn’t going to heal and she knows all the ways and that is it. The lady that was suppose to be checking me out came back and asked how long I have been doing this. I told her and she cut me off and said you haven’t been around a lot of metaphysical people. I said well not like you. (The people in Detroit, MI are much nicer. I hung with them for 8 months until gas prices got so bad. I live about 2 hours away.) She said I can tell. She bursted out and I could literally feel the energy of my hair fly. I wasn’t zipped up so I took all that energy in and I was about to cry. I was being chewed on that I didn’t know them and pretty much how dare I come over and know it all and tell us how to live. Then the other lady stood there smiling. She had sized me up a few times before that. I didn’t know they were friends. She told me to call them. I am wondering if they did it to knock me down a few pegs. I didn’t defend myself because I could hear spirit say just watch and listen. The words that ran through my head were you can’t teach anyone that knows it all. Remember what happens to the brain when you say I know it. It ques the subconscious mind to literally stop taking information in. The ego then jumps in with a chip on its shoulder. My spirit says keep watching and why did I project this? Ego is saying what on earth did I do to deserve this. I feel like I was on trial and she was judge and jury. There was another women there that said that I am to stop coming in as just a teacher because I am not being a teacher. I am being rude by coming in and shacking my finger and telling us what to do.

I thought okay what finger was I shaking? How was introducing myself and doing my best to show you who I am become a bad thing. You decided to interview me. I am not sure why I was being interviewed. I prayed and said help me. I felt energy swirling in my first and second chakra and I watched the energy go out to these three ladies. It was I am right you are wrong. I am so stupid. I am so glad you showed me the way. I will learn from you. I am not your equal I am to learn from the masters. I didn’t like the energy leaving me but she stopped and then said well in this town there is a lot of competition and you have to know how to run with the big dogs. I thought we are one but this isn’t unity. I got the message that we are to stand unity and let the frequency hold dominate on a global consciousness and be equal and become one. I thought this isn’t equal.

Anyway I learned that I can be easily blow off center. When that happens I get confused and muddled. I literally didn’t know that I was driving or where I was going. I ended up on the other side of town. I just was driving aimlessly. I just wanted out of there. Within what she said she had years of my experience flushed down the toilet. I was convinced she was right. I can’t help anyone. People can’t heal their pain in minutes. It was all a lie. I just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry. I wanted to go home but I am to go back to that place and teach. I wanted to just mail the key to them and tell them I am not coming back. I wanted to rip down my signs and say no more.

I stopped the car and sat. Out of the blue I said I am to learn many things from this but I am to learn to pull my power back. Then the phone rings and it was my dear friend that is away on a trip with no cell phone service. She says. Hey girl how are you doing. I told her and then the one frequency that comes through me to teach came through her. I recognized it. I thought wow my guides really want me to heal. Then a flash of blue came across my face and I absorbed all my energy back and then I was back to being me. I thought wow what an adventure I was on. I am so glad that I learned from it. Yahoooooo… Thank you thank you thank you.

Discovering the root cause of why I feel and act the way I do.

I mentally felt tired and didn’t want to do anything. I had to work. I felt like I was agitated. I couldn’t really find the words. I just knew I didn’t like the feeling it gave me. I am all about learning it quickly so it didn’t have to happen again.

I checked myself on the acugraph machine. I could see which meridians had too much energy, split, or not enough energy. I was reading two of the meridians and the emotions that can get trapped in there. As I read it, there was this familiar feeling about it. It read, “the ability to feel and express positive emotions.” Even though it was familiar I couldn’t conscious comprehend. Then I allowed myself to intuitively see pictures of memories. I saw myself as a kid being love. I am happy, talkative, playing, and carrying that higher energy that children do. I then would see angry mean faces of the adults. Why you so happy, there is nothing to be happy about. They would say mean things. They would tell me to go away. Stop singing. Leave me alone. Go find something else to do. We lived in a 2 bedroom trailer with 7 people. I did some muscle testing and found out that I made a decision at age 3 that it is wrong to express joy and happiness because when you do you get into trouble. I have to say I as a 40yr old women still feel like I am going to get into trouble. I did EHT – emotional healing technique that is about holding your meridian pulse points as you think and feel your emotions. It is really great to use in my practice. Anyway. I am seeing me doing that to my kids when I was really stressed. I saw my husband do it to the kids. He would get wrapped up in wanting to get something done and when they wanted to climb on his lap he got mad. I then started to remember it on tv and with other family and friends. As an adult I felt ashamed. As a kid I felt really hurt and threatened. I made that decision. I now need to preserve all of the positive learnings and heal from it. I am to go back to that moment as a child and change that decision and help that inner child in me resolve the issue.

Another epiphany came from all of this and that is when happiness has gone on too long in my life, I start to cough, asthma, bronchial issue. Or I sabotage myself by projecting my kids or husband to do something so I get mad or they get mad at each other and I am the peacemaker. I remember I can create or project all kinds of bad stuff to happen so I don’t be happy.